12-24-2005 I had no idea that I had waited two years to hear what he finally said. It was better than “I love you.” When you hang up the phone with someone, and you know that there was more left to be said, and he calls back, immediately, you finally know you are on the same page. We are finally on the same page.
Him: “You didn’t even tell me you missed me.”
Me: “Neither did you.”
Him: “You could of least tell me you missed me a little.”
Me: “Fine, I miss you a little.”
Him: “You better. Good night.”
Me: “Night.”
Then you hang up again, and you know that was not enough, that there was still more to be said. This time though you realize that he’s already turned the page and has no idea, and then you are separated… Until the phone rings again, and your tummy flutters, and you realize, that maybe this one time, maybe this one guy really is on the same page as you and you are not creating a fictional world in your head. You realize that maybe all those stupid movies about love might actually have the slightest ring of truth.
Him: “You know what I find attractive about You? I’ll tell you what I find attractive about You. It’s not your smoking hot body or your nice ass; it’s that you get me. You do get me, right?”
Me: “Yeah, I think so.”
Him: “It’s that you are real. You are happy. I am surrounded by miserable people and I need your companionship. I need your smile. I need you near me. You are going to have to move to Savannah. I have been thinking about this and we are going to have to sort it out this week. One way or the other we are going to have to figure this out. You are either going to have to go your own way, and I am going to have to go my way, or we are going to be together.”
Me: “I like option three.”
Him: “What is option three?"
Me: “The one where we are together.”
Him: “Good, that’s what I was thinking. You won’t have to work, as long as I have a job I will support you-“
Me: “-that’s really sweet of you to say but I like working.” Him: “Just listen to me! It has taken me a long time to come around, but I’m here, I have arrived, and I need you. I didn’t want anything to do with anybody, and then you came along, and everything changed. So you and the dogs are going to need to move to Savannah, and soon. We are going to work it out this week.” “Something has to give Baby. We are going to figure it out this week. I miss you. I’ll call you in the morning, good night Baby.”
When you wait over or almost two and a half years to hear someone say that, why is that the moment when you realize you had no idea that is what you were waiting to hear?